What's next?

 Sorry I abandoned y'all (aka myself) I'm currently homeless living in a hotel for the moment. Plus, life has been lifeing Rod wave wasn't lying when he said death got to be easy because life is hard. Waking up every day being present sometimes feels so tiring. I still won't except this as my reality because I know I deserve better than this life so I'm going to do everything I can to get out of this. My parents are helping and I'm grateful for that part because a lot of people don't have that type of help. At the time same time I wish I could say I'll be fine without the help but I'm not and that alone is killing me. I don't want to have to be connected with people because of money. It's kind of like with my sexual partners, when you take away the sex there's not really much left. If you were to take the money out of my relationship with my parents, there wouldn't be much left. Apart of me appreciate them for pushing me out since I definitely did get too comfortable living off of them. If I would have kept living, there I wouldn't be any closer to being independent. Although I still hate how they went about because I thought my mother was better than that. I don't even want to repeat what they did because I'd rather just move like it never happened so I will continue to act like it didn't. Anyway I'm going to a financial assistance place today to see if they can help with the next two weeks at this hotel even though it's not exactly what I want it's warm and isn't roach infested so what more can a girl ask for.

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