Never tell them your feelings..... never

 See I knew in the back of my mind that telling him would possibly make me feel worse, but I did it anyway. Maybe this is all the closure I need to move on from this chapter of my life into a life where I don't have to guess if someone feels the same as me. I want a life where we equally care for each other and one person doesn't care more than the other. That type of love is so draining and do I really keep sacrificing my mental help in order to feel something that in actuality may not even he real. When I first heard his response, I kept over analyzing it to make it fit around my feelings when the truth is he just doesn't feel the same. Sometimes it's not a battle of heart and mind but a battle of ego and reality. Sadly, today I am learning that lesson all too well today that in life just because you want something really bad doesn't mean you'll have it. I don't regret it though I know that I will be able to apply this is other areas of my life and keep moving forward. No more desperation for someone to love me. No more over thinking when I already know the truth. No more wasting my youth on these men.

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